I woke up with sadness so heavy in my chest, I could not breathe. The tears began to run down my face. I heard my higher self ask, "What is this?" And then I realized...it was Mother's Day.
My mom was my best friend. She still is actually. In the 15 years since she ascended to heaven, she really hasn't given me much of a chance to miss her because I am so present to her love and light on most days. So I went into meditation and ascended my consciousness to the heaven realm where I was met by my mom, gram, and favorite aunt. For a few holy moments I got to see them, hear them, smell them, and feel them, and it was heavenly.
When I returned to the physical realm it was time to call my sister to celebrate her birthday with my infamous birthday singing. After the song I could feel immediately that she too had a heavy heart, so I confessed mine to her and we spent a few moments crying together.
Then I remembered my mom's love of birthday celebrations, so I reminded my sister that the most loving thing we could do to honor our mother, was to celebrate her birthday. I quickly hung up, got ready, and headed out to Captiva Island to meet my sister's family.
On the way I called my brother, in hopes that his love and light would lift me. In the midst of our conversation he asked me what I thought we should do about our mom's final resting place, since the church that owned the memorial garden where her ashes were put to rest had recently been foreclosed on. A rush of emotions flooded me once again...I couldn't have that conversation. Not on Mother's Day. My brother completely understood, and let me off the hook by changing the conversation.
For the rest of the ride, I contemplated my dilemma. There I was feeling broken hearted and angry, but what I wanted was to celebrate my sister's birthday with her. How could I stay in the moment of honoring my experience and be there for her?
By being completely authentic.
I simply spent the day enjoying my pain. I know that may sound weird, but until you actually have the experience, you cannot possibly know the joy of just allowing yourself to express your deep, dark, ugly moment of truth. I let it out, I let it go, and you know what...today is a much brighter day.
So to all of you who feel like you just can't hang on a minute longer, stop trying. Let it go. Share your truth. Set yourself free. I promise, tomorrow will be a much brighter day.
With love & light,
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